Unexpected "friends"

It's funny how people walk in and out of your lives.

I think it's God way of saying that you can never escape your past, no matter how much you run from it. You'll always have to struggle with those parts of yourself that you wish you didn't have to deal with.

Anywho, I ran into an old and unexpected friend the other day. In high school, she had a massive crush on my brother. It was blatantly obvious by her walking past him and stroking his shoulders as she did so. Lingering eye glances. Giggles whilst she looked at him. Taking him out for walks and lunches and dinners, but leaving me at home alone. As his sister, it made me want to barf. Little to say that I did not like her.

She symbolized, to me, a feeling of inadequacy in my own life. All the girls in my youth group were half in love with my brother, and I struggled to gain friends on my own because I was shy and a tad socially awkward. The girls would often ignore me so that they could get my brother's attention, or only say hello to me when I was around my brother. In fact, the first time I ever went to youth group, I went over to a group of girls to say hello. They said hello, but ignored me after that. I listened to their conversation, which went along the lines of "Do you think he will talk to me?" At which point, they all got up, left me standing alone, and went to talk to my brother. I decided at that point that I preferred hanging out with males because at least they didn't - for the most part - want to be my friend so that they could talk to my brother. They were also all closer to my age anyways, and they were easy to get along with, so I pretty much became the tomboy of the bunch. My one girlfriend in youth was a girl that never competed for my brother's attention, who I never felt as if I had to earn the right to be a friend with, and who had an absolutely beautiful heart. Even though we've gone separate ways and I don't speak with her anymore, I still use a daily friendship quote book she gave me for each day of the year and think of her fondly.

All of these details to say that the girl who had a massive crush on my brother popped back into my life the other day at a home church in a different city. There I was, a complete newbie to the group, and she popped in and happens to be a regular attendee. Funny though, I have absolutely no resentment anymore. And I realize that my unwillingness and resentment from my past towards her was totally unfounded - she was just a bit lovesick, and she has always been as much a struggling Christian as myself. Now I see in her a fellow sister in Christ, and a new friend perhaps.

If she reads this, then she should know that I am sorry for ever harbouring resentment. 
It was certainly never my right to do so.